Where will you be in one year, two years 19 years? You may have a new BFF! You may have a new dog. You may be alone, or have more children. Are you planning your next year? Be careful... God has a plan for you and he has had it for a very long time. His plans are the best plans. We just aren't always sure of what they are, when they will happen, how they will happen. Okay I agree that is a bit... heavy. Scary. Uneasy. But you know what, it is the truth. Faith! Leap and know, God has a plan and His plans are good.
Today.... is a very melancholy day. Melancholy.... a deep, pensive... long lasting sadness.
Geez Louize, I know it doesn't lift ones spirits or anything, but it is what it is. There are no words. Can't explain. Have you ever lost someone you deeply loved to death. They were deeply connected to you in feelings, spirit, soul and blood. Then the anniversary of that loss comes around.... year after year after year....
For me, I always say it is okay, I am okay. The truth. It isn't really okay, it is just okay and I am okay.
I miss my Mom.
Tomorrow is another day.
I am excited to see my Mom again, for now she is dancing and celebrating everyday with her Lord and Savior. Now that is also okay.
Blessings dear friends who read my blog, and know....
Jesus Loves You!
The End.
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I love writing. I write mostly to Jesus. I write and I write and I write.
He listens. So well.
And then He gently turns my fist-pumping confusion, que...
13 years ago
3 comments:
from my dear friend Pam Popa.....
she says....
I just read your blog. I miss your mom too. Growing up, I was convinced that she knew everything and I still hear her voice in my days as a mommy. "Something spoiled is something put on a shelf and forgotten about. Children are to be loved" "If it makes you happy to play with my lipstick, you can....you are more important than makeup"
I know that her sitting on the couch day in and day out watching Tammy Fay was hard on you, but as a little girl walking through the room on the way outside to play, those messages made a difference. I WOULD NOT BE WHERE I AM TODAY WITH GOD WERE IT NOT FOR YOUR MOM! She opened Him up to me! She showed me there was a deeper relationship available than the one I was getting memorizing prayers and rituals in a catholic school.
I think of her daily and am SO grateful for her influence in my life. And she gave me YOU and your beautiful children! She was an amazing gift to me.
Yep, I miss your mom.
Love you!
I hear so many great things about Grandma and I cannot wait to meet her heaven. Grandma gave foundation to my husband's faith and I don't know if he would be where he is without her either. She sounds as if she was a remarkable woman. I just pray that when I pass on, people would say things like Pam about me and not that I was a "nice" person. I miss Grandma too even though I never physically met her.
B, you are sweet! I just read this! And She would have loved you .... deeply! She was a night owl, the two of you could have sat and talked forever!
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